I miss having someone here to hold me at night. Someone to share my day with. Someone to be with. The loss of companionship is the worst thing about the divorce (at least right now).
I see couples everywhere I go. I find myself wondering - what is wrong with ME?
Then I remember, no one is perfect. I can't change the past. I have to try to look toward the future. And whatever the reason was for him doing what he did - I AM okay - there is nothing fundamentally wrong with me.
Hugs to you and know that you are not alone in the way you are feeling.
You know, it is not him I miss, but what I had wanted - the idea of a healthy marriage. Of what it could have been. I mourn the loss of what my idea is of my reality. WHat it was supposed to be to what it is now.
As I make my new reality OK - I know when it hits me - that sadness of what I am lacking at a certain moment, I know what it is - not the loss of him - but of what it could have been. My dream of a healthy marriage.
Yeah, the loneliness is the pits.
My DF asked me the other night if I cared where he was at.
It's okay to jump...you have wings!
To move forward...you have to stop looking back.
I miss being married too.
I miss having someone here to hold me at night. Someone to share my day with. Someone to be with. The loss of companionship is the worst thing about the divorce (at least right now).
I see couples everywhere I go. I find myself wondering - what is wrong with ME?
Then I remember, no one is perfect. I can't change the past. I have to try to look toward the future. And whatever the reason was for him doing what he did - I AM okay - there is nothing fundamentally wrong with me.
Hugs to you and know that you are not alone in the way you are feeling.
~Hurtnlost
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It's okay to jump...you have wings!
To move forward...you have to stop looking back.
You know, it is not him I miss, but what I had wanted - the idea of a healthy marriage. Of what it could have been. I mourn the loss of what my idea is of my reality. WHat it was supposed to be to what it is now.
As I make my new reality OK - I know when it hits me - that sadness of what I am lacking at a certain moment, I know what it is - not the loss of him - but of what it could have been. My dream of a healthy marriage.