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I really wonder how he sleeps at night
| Sun, 07-24-2005 - 3:48pm |
I have had a terrible weekend....Trying to hold back each time I feel like having a meltdown.....Found out Friday that H took his girlfriend I am not supposed to know about out for a weekend trip........TO THE TOWN WE GOT MARRIED IN.....How messed up is that???
She lives 6 hours away and then he drove another hour to take her there.....I mean what the hell is wrong with him....How could he even enjoy himself....I just feel so deceived and so cast aside like I was nothing to him for 8 years.....I yelled at him too today for it...This was actually the first time since he said he wants divorce that I yelled at him and I do feel better.....It just hurts so bad that he could have such blatant disregard for me or my feelings....Then he just tries to say it is not what you think but then can not even conjure up a half way decent excuse.....I just feel like some one has stabbed me about 100 times in the heart....He does not care that I am pain and alone...I think he thinks he can just come home when he wants.....HE IS SO VERY WRONG.......I will never go thru this crap again.....I do not care how much $$ he makes, I am just done....going to file on Tuesday finally when my sitter comes, He said he would file...But now will not go.....Says he does not have time.....I guess I will just have to handle it......Heck, I was married to myself, it is kind of fitting that I will have to handle all of the divorce details alone too......
She lives 6 hours away and then he drove another hour to take her there.....I mean what the hell is wrong with him....How could he even enjoy himself....I just feel so deceived and so cast aside like I was nothing to him for 8 years.....I yelled at him too today for it...This was actually the first time since he said he wants divorce that I yelled at him and I do feel better.....It just hurts so bad that he could have such blatant disregard for me or my feelings....Then he just tries to say it is not what you think but then can not even conjure up a half way decent excuse.....I just feel like some one has stabbed me about 100 times in the heart....He does not care that I am pain and alone...I think he thinks he can just come home when he wants.....HE IS SO VERY WRONG.......I will never go thru this crap again.....I do not care how much $$ he makes, I am just done....going to file on Tuesday finally when my sitter comes, He said he would file...But now will not go.....Says he does not have time.....I guess I will just have to handle it......Heck, I was married to myself, it is kind of fitting that I will have to handle all of the divorce details alone too......

Hugs to you sweetie.
I went through the same thing except at the time they were lying about whether they were dating or not. I knew differently, but he was just all about making excuses. I found out that he took her to the place we had our honeymoon.
I look at it like this.... I hope she enjoyed screwing my husband in the same house that we had our honeymoon ( his father's
Hey there,
Wow, did you ever put up with a lot. I am glad you felt better after yelling at him - remember, you need an outlet!
I too went through something similar. My stbx thought he could come back home at the drop of a hat. WRONG! :) LOL
I used to take care of all of his finances, (well, what I could, considering the bills were three months old before he'd give them to me), arrange his time off from work, any taxes & paperwork, make dental & doctor appointments for him... The works.
In Canada, you need to be separated for a year before you can file the papers. By the time the year passed, I hadn't spoken to him in seven months. I knew that he had moved into an apartment somewhere, because his ever so helpful sister in law called me to "congratulate me on our new apartment"??? What an airhead. She thought that we had reconciled and I was moving in there too.
I had to be the one to file the papers, and see the lawyer, and do everything (including pay for it). In fact, when I phoned him on his cellular (number out of service), at home (number out of service), called his parents (would not answer phone or return calls), and finally ended up e-mailing him at work, he took two weeks to reply with an address I could use on the paperwork!!! And even then, it was his parents address, because he didn't want me to have his home address! Yeesh. I got his home address by doing a reverse phone number search online. And surprise, surprise... Guess whose name the phone is joint with??? The tramp he had cheated on me with. He didn't want me to know he was living with her! WHAT A JOKE! I don't care who he lives with, as long as he stays away from me!!!! He had offered to pay for half of the costs... I am not holding my breath as that was over a month ago and I haven't seen a dime.
Anyway, hugs to you. Hold on tight, you will make it.