I'm completely wiped

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Registered: 03-26-2003
I'm completely wiped
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Tue, 06-13-2006 - 9:07pm
Oh my. STBX and I attended therapy this morning. He was completely composed, well controlled and denied everything. He hasn't done anything wrong, this is all me and so on. I broked down crying telling him how it hurt that I was third wheel to his mom and that he didn't open up to me. He just sat there, "ok". I left there feeling like I just went eight rounds with some fighter. I can't even recap everything. I just know now that I have to finish this. It is over. Maybe we can continue therapy and do better by the kids after the divorce. I'm just exhausted. My head is killing me. I have to start concentrating more on work. Commission only you know. I am looking at a house tomorrow. We'll see.
 
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Registered: 03-28-2003
Tue, 06-13-2006 - 9:17pm
Unfortunately sometimes the best thing about therapy is that it shows you that you do need to get out and there is no hope. That's my deal. My stbx has several personalities (or so it would seem) and while there are one or do that I care about, there are some I can't stand. I never knew what mood he would be in and when we went to therapy, he was the "reasonable guy". It made me realize that he doesn't have a clue who he is and if I stayed with him, I would be on a roller coaster ride forever. Mind you, he is the one to ask for the divorce but at least I am not sitting around wondering "what if". I know there's no "what if". Maybe you should just go by yourself until you feel more together and then if he will agree to go so that you guys can work on coparenting at a later time, pick it up together when you are ready. Good luck.
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Registered: 03-19-2003
Wed, 06-14-2006 - 11:00am
I hope you're feeling better today!

Karen ~ wildlucky4me

Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Wed, 06-14-2006 - 5:22pm

Yep, better today. More focused and ready to fight. Bring it on dude!!!

Thanks.

 
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Registered: 03-26-2003
Wed, 06-14-2006 - 5:24pm

Well, it certainly did show that this isn't going to work out. He couldn't even offer a "little" I'm sorry for that or I'm sorry you feel that way. To h e double l with him. I'm getting off this roller coaster and moving over to the ferris wheel.

Thanks.