I'm getting a divorce. There I said it.
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|Wed, 12-04-2013 - 12:38am|
I haven't been on these boards for a long time, but they helped me very much when I was dealing with my husbands affairs so I thought I would reach out to another community that knows what I'm going through.
This has been the worst year ever. In April my mom died from cancer. Soon after that I realized I just couldn't be in my marriage of 10 years anymore (cheating, lack of attention and no sex, all on his part). I told him I wantd a divorce in June and he begged me to stick with him a few more months. I saw him trying to change but I just knew I needed to get out. So in October I told him it was my final decision and in early November I moved into my dads.
I've been in therapy Since July and it has helped with dealing with my mothers death and my decision to divorce. I know it's the right thing to do, I know he'll never be the man I deserve. But as I'm sure you all understand, this is hard. It's hard to be in my mothers home when she's not here and never coming back. It's hard to be away from the comfort of a marriage, even one that wasn't great. The weird part is we are very amicable so far. We handled the divorce paperwork and dividing assets with just my lawyer, both insisting we be as fair as we can. I turned 30 last week and he took me out, we had a good time. I don't know if it's making things easier or harder.
I guess the thing is, I don't know how to do this. I've lost so much. I try to look for the silver linings and be thankful for the good things in life, but sometimes it's so hard. I feel like I have a million things to talk about but I guess I should just stick with the basics first. It's actually just nice to "say" these things, get them out there, off my mind a little bit. If you've made it this far, thank you!