This is it....
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This is it....
| Sat, 08-27-2005 - 8:35am |
My STBX was served with the divorce papers yesterday. I found an apartment (VERY expensive, but thankfully, in the same school district), and started moving a few things in. My final move will be on 09/07.
Although we both know this is the right thing, I feel scared. Terrified. Lonely. Empty. I am scared of failing and falling flat on my face. What if I can't make it on my own? Lose my job? Feel lonely and sad for the rest of my life? Have regrets?
All I wanted from him was to come home a few nights a week and go to counseling. He just couldn't do it. And now it's over. And I am really hurting.
The case management date is 12/13. Wow. The divorce is really happening.

Although we both know this is the right thing, I feel scared. Terrified. Lonely. Empty. I am scared of failing and falling flat on my face. What if I can't make it on my own? Lose my job? Feel lonely and sad for the rest of my life? Have regrets?
Right now is a really unsure time.
Big Hugs.
I think you will find that this is the hardest time. Once you get out on your own and see that you are not failing or going to fall on your face, you will find that you can get through anything. You know this is the right thing. There isn't anything else you can do but prove to yourself that you can, and you will, make it.