Just dont think I am strong enough

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Registered: 02-28-2005
Just dont think I am strong enough
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Wed, 08-23-2006 - 9:24am
Hi, fairly new here. Posted once lurk alot. I am having a bad day thought I would vent and maybe get some advice. My husband and I have been seperated for about 2 months. There has been no cheating, he is just immature and I was tired of dealing with him wanting to party all the time. That is basically the only thing we ever fought about. We have a 5 year old daughter (who starts kindergarten tomorrow on a happy note). She is so upset about all this. Anyway, he just says that he is confused and doesn't know what he wants. Ok fine I was being strong b/c after 6 years you have to get strong sometime, right? I have been doing pretty good but today I am feeling pretty low. I know that I will have good days and bad days but I just don't think that I am strong enough to deal with this. I have contacted a lawyer just to see what my options were, the cost etc. Now I have told him this and he wants to get together to straighten out all the financial stuff, house etc. I guess in the back of my mind I was kind of hoping that we could work all this out and stay together, I was just going through all the motions of getting it over with. I do still love him and I want my family. On the other hand if he doesn't want to better himself and make himself a better husband and father, splitting is probably the best idea. GRRRR, I am so confused. He is so selfish but I have also seen how good of a person he CAN be. I know that if we divorce, eventually I will be ok. It's just the getting there. I will have to find a new place to live, we just moved recently to a different town to buy a house. I do not know anyone there. My daughter will be starting school there so I can't just uproot her to move back closer to my family. Life can be so hard sometimes. Well thanks for listening to me vent. Any help would be appreciated!
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Registered: 03-19-2003
Thu, 08-24-2006 - 9:29am

I feel ya!


Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~