Just looking for support

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Registered: 12-12-2004
Just looking for support
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Sat, 08-16-2008 - 2:31pm


Ladies,

I have been on here 2 in the expecting clubs when I was pregnant with both of my boys now 4 and 1 years of age. I am 25 years old and have been with my husband for 7 years, basically my entire adult life. It has been a long road, and nothing but an emotional roller coaster. I have been through lots of emotional abuse and I am fed up with the way he treats me. I have completely shut down and have no desire to talk to him. 2 months ago I wanted a divorce ,he first put his hands on my neck as if he was going to strangle me then got up and punched a wall, hit a stud and broke his hand... He cried and begged me to come back saying he was going to change, got on medication for enxiety and we went to counseling once, I told him I had enough he did nothing but profess his love and that he never meant to hurt me and admitted that he was at fault. I like an idiot, stayed until he started back up again, with his insane disillusions of me cheating on him and always suspecting me of something. Anyways , yesterday he showed up at my work and did nothing but yell at me in the parking lot, people were watching to make sure he wasn't going to do anything crazy, but to me that was the last straw. I picked up the kids from daycare after work and headed to my moms. He was furious and came over to talk, fortunately I had my friend over and I told him I had enough... He said he was going to leave forever....

long story short, he is a great dad but not a good husband. He is not a person I can have a serious talk with and rationalize. My mom is picking up my stuff and bringing it over right now... But I need to hear from someone that can relate and tell me I will survive. Its going to be hard and I can't begin to think of all the things that need to be done, actually filing for a divorce the bills, and to think we were already broke. Its not going to be easy. Anyways I am just rambling but it feels good to release my thoughts.

Please keep me and my kids in your prayers as I will need it and I guess I just need to focus on taking one day at a time. This life with him is all I know and I can already see that this is going to be a huge adjustment.

Any advice greatly appreciated.

Thanks,

Sharon

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-19-2003
Thu, 08-21-2008 - 9:47pm

Hi Sharon.... sorry you're here, but glad that you found us.


Ya know.... he's missing punches at you now.... he's just been "a good dad"... SO FAR!!!


Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~