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| Thu, 03-15-2007 - 10:54pm |
Ok, so I am relatively new here and this has been and perfectly horrible day. But let me share with all of you just a few bits of wisdom that I have deemed from my horrible so far nine month disaster.
In July of 2005 my husband took a job 1500 miles away, he had been unemployed for 3 months but I was also only 6 months from completeing my masters degree. We had been having problem for about 10 of our 13 years but it was a job. I graduated still didn't have a job in his new place so the kids and I continued to stay put. For a total of a year my kids and I saw him for a total of 25 days. I file for divorce and am offered a job 700 miles closer to him and closer to my family, I filed for divorce, left my friends, left my therapist and made the move.
See the thing is that 9 months into this divorce, move and all encompassing life changing situation I find that every day I question every step that I have taken. I want nothing more than to return to what I veiw as home, but can't seem to find employment back in that area, probably because it is in the state withm the worst unemployment in the country. I hate where I am and want nothing more than to go back but can't. Add to that that my stbx is being a complete and total jerk, I spent most of today arguing via email with my attorney about the fact that just now after 9 months all of a sudden mediation has been introduced to the equation with 6 weeks until our settlement conference which I equated with mediating our differnces and I just want to scream. I have no one to talk to I live in a painfully small town and don't have access to the therapist that I left and want nothing more than to fall apart except for the fact that I do everything that I can to keep it together for the kids and I get no breaks from them.
I want to scream, cry, fall apart and just cry until I can't cry anymore. would someone please just shoot me so that my agony would be over?

Hey... sorry I didn't catch you sooner.
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~