Lonely night
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Lonely night
| Sat, 12-24-2005 - 11:30pm |
I can really see why people get depressed around the holidays. My kids are with my ex until tomorrow morning. Went to my parents house for dinner, and their home which is normally filled with people-my siblings and their families namely, was pretty empty. No one was able to come back for Christmas. I didn't have my kids, my ex and I have been broken up for two years now, So just me and my parents. Came home to an empty house. This has been the lonliest Christmas eve I think I have ever experienced. Plus, my ex called me on the phone earlier today and started arguing with me again. He got me so worked up I was considering skipping Christmas eve all together and just going to sleep.
He called me a controlling, manipulative person (gee, sounds more like him), and told me that he didn't care if he had burned any bridges with me because they were bridges he never wanted to cross over again! It hurts so much still sometimes. I can't figure out why he hates me so much. I am the one who was cheated on, lied to, stole from, hurt so terribly that I will probably never fully recover, so why does HE hate ME! It should be the other way around. He told me that I was the only one he had ever lied to, and that he tells the truth to everyone ELSE! He told me that he would never pay his child support arrears and good luck getting him to pay it. He really is a mean person. I can't believe I didn't see it before. He is a mean, selfish bastard. What a horrible thing to think about someone on Christmas eve, but it's true! I don't know why he bothers talking to me at all. Maybe he should just leave me alone and not bother giving me the time of day anymore. It does no good to talk to him about anything.
He called me a controlling, manipulative person (gee, sounds more like him), and told me that he didn't care if he had burned any bridges with me because they were bridges he never wanted to cross over again! It hurts so much still sometimes. I can't figure out why he hates me so much. I am the one who was cheated on, lied to, stole from, hurt so terribly that I will probably never fully recover, so why does HE hate ME! It should be the other way around. He told me that I was the only one he had ever lied to, and that he tells the truth to everyone ELSE! He told me that he would never pay his child support arrears and good luck getting him to pay it. He really is a mean person. I can't believe I didn't see it before. He is a mean, selfish bastard. What a horrible thing to think about someone on Christmas eve, but it's true! I don't know why he bothers talking to me at all. Maybe he should just leave me alone and not bother giving me the time of day anymore. It does no good to talk to him about anything.

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