Lost but Not

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Registered: 06-27-2008
Lost but Not
Fri, 06-27-2008 - 7:11pm
Im not sure where to begin so I will just dive right into my drama. I have been married for 6 years, together for 8. He was abusive physically and emotionally. I stayed and stayed. Then last February I left for the month. Then I came back knowing i shouldnt have. I have been very unhappy to the point of mean. I told him this morning Im moving to my moms and do not want to be married anymore. I hate to hurt him but on the other hand he is not the nicest person...he is spoiled. So im moving out tonight and he is not taking me seriously. I have an appt to file divorce papers on Monday .. he doesnt know this. I dont feel like typing out the whole 8 years but im so sad. LIke im here physically doing my work but not mentally .. neither of us have ever cheated we dont have any kids. So me leaving is a bit easier, but i have so many emotions right now. Im not a bad person but i feel if i stay it will do more damage to us than we already have. Sigghhhhhhhhh.....i say im lost but not and the more i type the more i think i am lost.