Man this is a LOOOONG weekend...
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Man this is a LOOOONG weekend...
| Sat, 05-24-2008 - 8:55pm |
It's only Saturday night and I am soooo bored, lonely and short on patience with my children. Thankfully we do have a picnic tomorrow. I'm reading a good book too...but I can't help but let my mind drift to what the H is out doing. The freedom he has. I know, I know...not worth my time or energy to think that way...but dang--this early stage of divorce, with no help or time from H, is the pits! Thanks for letting me have a pity party for myself. I'll be better by tomorrow...

I hear you!!
Well, I wasn't exactly bored today but I know what you mean about the stbx.
hello, movingonthistime,
I understand the lonliness!
New here but finding so many similar situations that I feel at home already.
STBX moved out 2 weeks ago; our 10th anniversary is June 6 but we've been together 19 years. 2 kids, DD is 12 and DS is 9. I was dreading this weekend too, as it was always a 'family time'. He hasn't had the kids at his house yet at all, has no furniture yet. I've had the kids' friends here all week, and today too, sleepovers, etc. I love having kids here, and seeing them have fun; H could never tolerate them and all the noise they would make. Of course I resent him having all the freedom now; even though he always did, really - he would go off and do his many hobbies and I would always be the one taking care of/entertaining the kids. People would even joke around that he was my 'third child'. And he was the one that wanted the divorce, saying he 'wasn't happy'.
Oh Cubmom--I can so relate. I've told one group of friends and one woman I work with (who is also divorced from an alcoholic--my situation also)...my mom and sibling know too. But I have a slew of others I haven't told, including two close, close friends who live out of state from me.
It's just an emotionally draining conversation. And I don't feel like going there over and over and over again (I get there enough on my own). I planned to call one longtime girlfriend this weekend, but haven't done it yet. Between dealing with the kids and other stuff, I've
Moving,
I also feel like damaged goods most of the time.
We all have our down times (remember mine last weekend?) I'm responding a day late as my DS got his wisdom teeth out this weekend, and I've been playing nurse/mommy ;) As down as I was a week ago, and uncertain, feeling badly about STBX getting help with his drinking etc., this weekend secured in my mind why he absolutely CANNOT come home. He drove me crazy, tried to control everything during the surgery, wanted to be the one in the recovery room (like he was going to be head nurse guhhhhh) and then only came up to the house for 15 minutes to see our DS!!! (Oh and he spent most of the time in the garage!) Geez, so I hope that you too get a glimpse of why you aren't together soon. Hang in there!!!
I guess I am still very bitter, its only been two days, he says hes coming by today but I highly doubt it and guess I dont care either, I am having the kids moved to another home which I hate so much to do :( but I cant do it on my own, I was a SAH wife so I dont have income, etc yet. but they wont move until a week or two and its sooo hard to process my thoughts and emotions, I dont get to go visit friends or hang out or even stay up all night and watch movies to help myself heal, I am in constant mommy mode, and I havent even had a chance to grieve. :( So, I HEAR YA!