My 11th anniverary is Saturday
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My 11th anniverary is Saturday
| Thu, 08-25-2005 - 10:01pm |
Hi,
I am in the process of divorce from my H...I moved out April 1st. I am officially going through a hard stage of mourning. I cry alot, sob actually. I don't regret leaving and don't have second thoughts, but I miss my friend SO SO SO much.
I am afraid of this Sat. I am going to spend the weekend at the oean and I hope the salt and sea heals my heart. But I know the depth of pain I feel now and I can't imagine what it will be like Saturday.
Please send positive vibes my way. I am terrified of the pain. I have never felt anything this excruciating in my life.
Hope you are all hanging in there.
xo
Loves

{{{{rich}}}}
thanks rich.
man. when it rains it pours. I just found out tonight that my beloved daddy may have had a stroke. he is 74 and has had headaches for 3 weeks. they thought it was a tooth that needed to be pulled but when they pulled the tooth the headaches were still there. they admitted him tonight after a catscan came back with indications of a stroke.
please pray everyone. i cannot handle any more.
xxxx
Hugs, Brenda
You poor thing! I feel for you. I understand the pain you're in. I was together with my STBX for 12 years, married for almost 8. Excruciating is definitely a good word to describe the pain...even if you did want/need the divorce.
As for your father...my father had a stroke when he was 70, about 2 years ago. He is very well recovered now. I hope your father is OK.
You are in my thoughts and prayers....
Last year, I celebrated my 8th anniversary by leaving the country to be as afar away from my STBX as possible. I never thought I could erase that day from memory. Then I realized that the memory of the wedding wasn't the problem... it was the memories from the years after that caused me all the pain. I spent that day on the beach, drinking margaritas and watching the ocean, trying to learn spanish and bargaining with vendors over silver jewelry. I didn't think about "IT" as much as I thought I would. I cried but mainly I enjoyed being ME.
This year, I have something else to celebrate on that day - my friend's son's first birthday. While I was in Mexico last year, my friend gave birth to a beautiful boy on my anniversary. And next year, I will celebrate a new anniversary - the anniversary of the divorce and the reclaiming of my own life. Choose the reasons to celebrate.
Jenny
"Don't count the days, make the days count."