Hi- Since this has happened to me, I have been continually praying to God to give me sign; something to help me through this. Nothing. Then, yesterday at work, I was writing something for a co-worker, and wrote the word "Change" in a note, with a bright green marker. It may sound cheesy, but it struck me that if I wanted change, I'd have to do it myself. Also, the color green has always symbolized growth and I really think I got my sign, I guess you just need to be open to them.
I really never felt I was alone with the feelings of betrayal I've experienced over the years, but the message boards here have given me hope that there is something beyond what I lived.
What you said, abou tlookig for soemthing deep when nothing deep was there, is hugely powerfult o me. My DH is very insecure, mistrustful, suspicious and an alcoholic to boot. We have been married 3 years, together 7. We are in therapy but he is resistant to change. I am seeignthat we are very different people. I have alwasy been opne, kind, loving, spontaneous,
Ya know... I used to sing that song triumphantly when I was closer to 30.... that, and a bunch of other empowering music.
I often wonder why it took me so long to make the decision that I was worth more than I was settling for in my marriage, but ya know.... if I'd made the call any sooner, I may have left wondering "what if...?"
Good.For.You!! Yay Goddess! You sound very empowered and determined to enjoy life now that you're putting your time with him in perspective. I admire that. I'm no where near where you are--though I have moments of empowerment...I look forward to more and more empowering times as the months go by. Continued happiness and success for you!!
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Hi goddess!
Get ready to enjoy your next 30 years.
Since this has happened to me, I have been continually praying to God to give me sign; something to help me through this. Nothing. Then, yesterday at work, I was writing something for a co-worker, and wrote the word "Change" in a note, with a bright green marker. It may sound cheesy, but it struck me that if I wanted change, I'd have to do it myself. Also, the color green has always symbolized growth and I really think I got my sign, I guess you just need to be open to them.
Camult,
I really never felt I was alone with the feelings of betrayal I've experienced over the years, but the message boards here have given me hope that there is something beyond what I lived.
Mandi,
It's called an epiphany -- a sign -- from seemingly nowhere.
What you said, abou tlookig for soemthing deep when nothing deep was there, is hugely powerfult o me. My DH is very insecure, mistrustful, suspicious and an alcoholic to boot. We have been married 3 years, together 7. We are in therapy but he is resistant to change. I am seeignthat we are very different people. I have alwasy been opne, kind, loving, spontaneous,
And she quotes a lyric!!!!!
Ya know... I used to sing that song triumphantly when I was closer to 30.... that, and a bunch of other empowering music.
I often wonder why it took me so long to make the decision that I was worth more than I was settling for in my marriage, but ya know.... if I'd made the call any sooner, I may have left wondering "what if...?"
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~
I can relate a little to your story..........the staying when you know it's dead and has been for a long time.
Lost,
Sorry I didn't respond sooner, but have been out of town for the past few days.
Wildlucky,
I can tell you're my kind of person!
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