Hi. Let me first say that everything you are feeling is normal. You are greiving. You sound like you are in the shock/denial phase which is very confusing.....even physical symptoms are very normal....feeling as though you cannot think, like your body is heavy....sleep problems, eating problems?....It's all very normal. I felt as though I was moving in slow motion and yet jittery all at the same time.
I wanted to suggest books...believe it or not it can help alot. There are a world of books at the library that can help. One that helped me alot was "how to survive the loss of a love"....which is a very compassionate book with very good advice. Another is "facing fear, finding courage".
I also think your family doctor could be a great help to you. I bet he/she could direct you to a therapist that does a sliding scale. Many churches offer some kind of counseling too.
I am 8 months into my ordeal.....have had to completely start over. It DOES get better. It WILL get better. Take care of yourself. Right now focus on yourself .....You are the mot important thing both for yourself and for your children. I will be thinking of you. Please stay in touch here and let us know how it's going. (((((BIG HUG)))))
((Hugs)) to you.
It's okay to jump...you have wings!
To move forward...you have to stop looking back.
I wanted to suggest books...believe it or not it can help alot. There are a world of books at the library that can help. One that helped me alot was "how to survive the loss of a love"....which is a very compassionate book with very good advice. Another is "facing fear, finding courage".
I also think your family doctor could be a great help to you. I bet he/she could direct you to a therapist that does a sliding scale. Many churches offer some kind of counseling too.
I am 8 months into my ordeal.....have had to completely start over. It DOES get better. It WILL get better. Take care of yourself. Right now focus on yourself .....You are the mot important thing both for yourself and for your children. I will be thinking of you. Please stay in touch here and let us know how it's going. (((((BIG HUG)))))