One of those days

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Registered: 03-31-2003
One of those days
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Sun, 06-10-2007 - 12:46pm
I really really hate my emotions lately. Today I am feeling like a complete loser. I feel I failed my marriage, my family, my children, and myself. I've been searching for a job for almost 1 whole month now, being rejected time after time and having my sister on my ass to try harder. That only makes me feel more unwanted!
I actually cried today, and just when I thought I was at my lowest point, I got a phone call saying I got a job. lol. It doesn't pay much, but with state daycare assistance I should be OK!
And on top of everything I am PISSED that I havn't heard from STBX since memorial day, like he can't give 2 minutes every few days to talk to the kids, or AT LEAST ask how they're doing!!! It's just heartbreaking to say goodnight to my four year old and have him say he loves daddy too....I'm just glad they're so young. If he abandones these kids I hope he burns in hell. :(
When will these emotions get under control??
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Registered: 04-07-2007
Sun, 06-10-2007 - 12:58pm
Girl, you will get through this! These emotions that you're having are very normal, and even though you may feel very isolated, know that we are out here too, going through some of the same things. Divorce isn't easy.....it is one of the hardest things you will do. Don't get wrapped up on STBX, if he is going to call....what he is doing......etc. Just focus on you and the kids. Don't sit around and let your mind get the best of you......get out.......get active with your kids.....hang in there....you will survive this! I promise......we've all been right where you are, and it does get easier, and better.
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Registered: 03-26-2003
Sun, 06-10-2007 - 3:01pm

aurakitty...

Pianoguy knows (from experience) that when you let the tears overtake you...the most important people in your life become secondary! .

Give yourself permission to redirect your attention to your children...and not the STBX and tell SIS to cut the crap! You can't make excuses for the bad behavior or lack of attention from the STBX...SO DON'T!

Reassure your children that YOU love them and give each of 'em a HUGE HUG! If Dad doesn't give a damn about them...HE is the one who is losing out....NOT HIS CHILDREN!

Pianoguy

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Registered: 03-31-2003
Mon, 06-11-2007 - 10:38pm
Thanks guys. Just taking it one day at a time for now! I live for my children, they are the reason I still get up in the morning, they are my world. :)