Probably won't hear from me for a while

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Registered: 12-21-2004
Probably won't hear from me for a while
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Sun, 12-03-2006 - 10:54am
I wanted to let you know that after the 6th that I probably won't be posting for awhile. They are scheduled to disconnect my telephone which means the DSL will be gone also...this is a major loss when you have two teenagers in the house. This has been a wonderful board in order for me to vent to - and just by seeing how many people have viewed my posts and all of the wonderful responses - I know that I will miss having you to vent too. But I have to choose what things to begin losing first and I guess that the phone will come before the lights - and that will be next. I was hoping that my husband would come to his senses and try to at least send me some money...but I could tell by talking to him on the phone..that obviously he is scared of this girl for some reason..I don't know if she knows something on him; I don't know if he has some connection with something really bad through her or what...but I know if he can walk away from two beautiful children, a home, a vehicle, and a family then he should be able to walk away from a wh#@% who has nothing. I pray that none of the rest of you that have truck drivers for husbands and boyfriends EVER have to go through what I have. I honestly believe if 20 years ago when I tried my best to get him to get a job with a local company that was just opening up - that he would probably be close to retiring...or if he would have took the state job that his father had him 18 years ago he would be close to retiring also...but oh, no he had to choose trucking, with all the wh@#%# that he has slept with, with the being gone, with the drugs, with the losing job after job after job -now it has cost him everything - literally other than his life - and the drugs will probably end up taking that if AIDS or some other kind of STD's doesn't take it first. Please keep me and my family in your prayers...everyone says that each day will become easier - but it hasn't happened yet.
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Registered: 12-21-2004
Sun, 12-03-2006 - 12:41pm

Actually she isnt with me for the money. I would have to be able to have access to money first if that were the case!she hasnt even asked me for money-since-we moved in together. And yes she does know that i have children and she understands and respects my-love for my kids.

This was an e-mail that I just received from him. He is sending e-mails from a pre-paid cell phone he said.
This is one from last night.

Love you just wanted you to know that i still do will call you at work mon

This was my reply to him this morning:

Then why have you had no contact with kids - school is officially
half over the end of next week. You have missed daughters entire 1st half of her senior year. Nobody no matter how sorry walks out and leaves their kids. Son said he tries not to think about you and daughter said that if you couldn't be happy here never being here then you will never be happy anywhere. I don't think you will ever have a chance with her again. All of sons friends and teachers say he never mentions you - he told me he is the man of the house now. I believe God put me in the same place as your boss last Friday night. You will never have the chance to watch your daughter cheer again. I've told them that they aren't getting anything for
Christmas this year. You screwed around on me daughters' kindergarten year - that's when I filed for divorce - beginning of the year - and **** you did the same thing at the beginning of her senior year. What a life you have...and I was going to ask you if you wanted to come back home.. How sad. Does she understand that she is only 5 years older than your daughter? And that your daughter is dating someone 1 year younger than she is. Reckon your daughter will move in with a married man when she is 22?

I have blanked out our children's name because I don't want any of his friends to read this and figure out who I am.

He won't answer the cell now - I'm sure it's because she is in the truck - we he put those words "when we moved in together" - oh my gosh - I want to throw up. How can he say that he say that she knows and respects his love for his kids? He hasn't talked to our son since the day he left us - and the only time he has spoken to our daughter was at the convenience store when she pulled up beside him on a cell phone - about a month ago. Maybe all of this was the answer to my last post yesterday about how I wish he would just come back home.