sad, happy...and moving on
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sad, happy...and moving on
| Mon, 03-28-2005 - 6:04pm |
Hi Everybody,
I am at the begining of this whole thing…my STBX is still living with me, but also at the end. My STBX will be moving out April 1st and I will be moving to a different part of the state on the 4th. So, I stand between two lives, happy to move on and sad at the things I have lost. I don’t know how to feel about my STBX. My emotions are all over the place. I love him…and feel is some ways that he is still my DH. I hate him for some of the inexcusable behavior he has done. And I am just plain mad as anything at home too. I’m just all over the place. I cannot be in just one place with all of this. Smooth riding must come later in the game. I wish for it, and more clarity as to my truth with regards to my husband. I want to leave him and end the play of acting like his wife. We’ll see what that happens for now I just am in-between not quite married and not quite devoace or real to how I feel…that this marriage is over and I want to move on. I’ve changed he has not. And I want different things that he cannot provide…so I am moving on two a new and different life.
Blessing to all, Anna
I am at the begining of this whole thing…my STBX is still living with me, but also at the end. My STBX will be moving out April 1st and I will be moving to a different part of the state on the 4th. So, I stand between two lives, happy to move on and sad at the things I have lost. I don’t know how to feel about my STBX. My emotions are all over the place. I love him…and feel is some ways that he is still my DH. I hate him for some of the inexcusable behavior he has done. And I am just plain mad as anything at home too. I’m just all over the place. I cannot be in just one place with all of this. Smooth riding must come later in the game. I wish for it, and more clarity as to my truth with regards to my husband. I want to leave him and end the play of acting like his wife. We’ll see what that happens for now I just am in-between not quite married and not quite devoace or real to how I feel…that this marriage is over and I want to move on. I’ve changed he has not. And I want different things that he cannot provide…so I am moving on two a new and different life.
Blessing to all, Anna

While things are being resolved... it's hard to know what to feel and how to feel it.
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~
I agree with Karen.
Things are so hard when they are in limbo. It's hard to know how to feel. I guess just take everyday by everyday..... go with the flow.
You will be ok.
Hugs to you sweetie!
Angelena
Here is a little article that you should read.
http://www.mary.com/articles/view.html?aid=32&
wishing you the best...
Karen ~ wildlucky4me
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~