Setback Day....
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Setback Day....
| Mon, 08-15-2005 - 10:45am |
I have been doing so well the last few weeks....I really have....I have not let anything about him get to me and I have even started feeling like myself again.......I have not given one care about him whatsoever....then he called me this morning...I really have to start letting his calls go to voicemail....It was 8 am, he is never up that early unless he is doing his monday morning drive back from Knoxville....He spent weekend with girlfriend....he must really think that I am a total dummy not to know.....he really does think that he is lying to me and just getting by with it.....I had to call him a half an hour later to ask him about a bill that he needs to pay and of course he was still in the car....It only takes him about 5 min to drive to work.....at the end of our conversation, I said Oh, you are still driving and not at work yet...He said uh,yeah..I just want to scream ..........I hate you....but instead I just hung up....Everything is just a big party for him...while he was out having a good time telling some girl how in love he is........what was I doing?....I was up all night long with our two sick little ones dodging vomit and holding them to comfort them.....I really do not think I hurt over him, I hate him too much for that to be the case.....It is just so painful that everything seems to just go his way, He had some chic and was in love before he even left our marriage, He has a successful business now that makes tons of money, he used our savings account to buy all new furniture for his new apt....who really needs to spend over $7000 on furniture?......and if I have to hear from one more person about how they love his new Hummer that he is driving around town, I am going to scream......Right now, I just feel like a big loser and that he is right and that I am stupid and nothing....Hopefully someday Karma will kick him in the backside and I can come post about how he is bankrupt or something.........I am just going to try and smile to be nice to the jerk, so I can make sure that I get everything I want out of the divorce.......but after those final papers are signed, if I am having a bad day.........He is going to see it........sorry to vent..........I am just so angry......

>>>>>>someday Karma will kick him in the backside and I can come post about how he is bankrupt or something>>>>>>>
That's right sweetie... just keep reminding yourself of that.
He didn't win, you did. You are finding yourself which obviously he isn't because he is buying things instead of working on HIS problem with HIMSELF. YOU are taking care of those little ones and YOU will have a clear soul. He will have to live with what HE DID forever. YOU will get over it and move on into a new and exciting life. YOU will learn from this experience and YOU will love again. He will be STUCK forever if he cannot accept HIS wrongdoing.
Hugs to you and never forget that HE is the one who lost.... not you.
Hugs Hugs Hugs,
Angelena
Hang in there.... you have every right to have bad days... and you did the right thing by hanging up on him.
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~