So Grateful!
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| Sun, 12-10-2006 - 12:32am |
I want to say "thanks" to you all for sharing your journeys at whatever point they are. I've learned so much about myself from reading other people's posts.
I finally did move out of the marital home on Wednesday. My STBX tried to hold us all hostage in the house by refusing to go to work and refusing to let me take the children out of the house. I went straight to my lawyer and it took all of my courage and strength to proceed with the move that day.
A lot has happened in the past few days. STBX and I worked out visitation for the next few days. I ended up sitting in on a session he had with his therapist and was happy to hear the therapist tell him some things he needed to hear (ie: she is not ambivalent, this marriage is over, you need to move on).
But most significantly, being out of the marital home has lifted a veil off of my eyes. I am seeing now how much control and abuse I have been living with. I am also feeling the physical effects of no longer running on adrenaline. I am so incredibly wiped out. I feel as though I could sleep for days on end.
I just have to say- if you're like me and prolonging freeing yourself from what you know is a bad situation- don't wait. It took me a year to finally make the move and now that I have I am already feeling better, interacting with my children better, and seeing new hope for my future. If you're being bullied and threatened, dig up the courage and make the move. You won't regret it!
Peace to you all,
Cindy

That is great news, Cindy. I am truly happy for you - the rest of the walk is going to be so much easier!!!!
Hugs!!! V.