stbx is backsliding....ugh...
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stbx is backsliding....ugh...
| Wed, 07-13-2005 - 12:54pm |
Okay, I need to rant.
Well, he's been gone for 2 months and now that its time for us to talk about dividing up stuff, he says, well maybe this isn't the best decision. I practically begged him to come home and work it out the first couple weeks he was gone. I had to move on and stop loving him for myself though, or else I would still be a mess. Now, I've already gone and signed a lease on a new apartment, started buying new stuff that doesn't remind me of him, and I'm actually enjoying being single again. I'm excited to get out into the dating scene again. So, now I'm ready to get this divorce taken care of and now he's the one saying, "Well I almost came home last week" and "you don't realize what you had till it's gone" When he left, I told him to mark my words that he would regret this decision. He didn't believe me at the time, but last night when we were talking bills and packing up the rest of his belongings, I was fine and he was the one nearly in tears. It was still stressful though. And I'm such a cryer, I'm so proud of myself for being such a rock last night and not letting him get to me. He used to could. Everytime I would see him after he left, I would end up bawling. I've become much stronger over the past two months now and he sees that.
Anyway, today would have been our 3 year anniversary, and suprisingly enough, I'm better than I thought I would have been. A friend and I are going out for mexican food and margaritas and to Bed Bath and Beyond to pick out my new bathroom stuff. So, I'm excited!
Still dealing with him is a pain and tends to bug me still. Thanks for listening to my rant.
Well, he's been gone for 2 months and now that its time for us to talk about dividing up stuff, he says, well maybe this isn't the best decision. I practically begged him to come home and work it out the first couple weeks he was gone. I had to move on and stop loving him for myself though, or else I would still be a mess. Now, I've already gone and signed a lease on a new apartment, started buying new stuff that doesn't remind me of him, and I'm actually enjoying being single again. I'm excited to get out into the dating scene again. So, now I'm ready to get this divorce taken care of and now he's the one saying, "Well I almost came home last week" and "you don't realize what you had till it's gone" When he left, I told him to mark my words that he would regret this decision. He didn't believe me at the time, but last night when we were talking bills and packing up the rest of his belongings, I was fine and he was the one nearly in tears. It was still stressful though. And I'm such a cryer, I'm so proud of myself for being such a rock last night and not letting him get to me. He used to could. Everytime I would see him after he left, I would end up bawling. I've become much stronger over the past two months now and he sees that.
Anyway, today would have been our 3 year anniversary, and suprisingly enough, I'm better than I thought I would have been. A friend and I are going out for mexican food and margaritas and to Bed Bath and Beyond to pick out my new bathroom stuff. So, I'm excited!
Still dealing with him is a pain and tends to bug me still. Thanks for listening to my rant.

I'm glad that you felt so strong..... remember the good days!.... you might have a few bumps along the journey and it's good to have the good ones to remember.
Hope the shopping was fun..... come and rant any time!
Karen ~ wildlucky4me
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~