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| Mon, 02-05-2007 - 6:19pm |
Two things.
First, when I called DD (9-yo) last night, she was trying to tell me that she saw STBX looking at something weird on the computer, but he was listening to her end of the conversation and she didn't want him to know what she saw, so we agreed to wait and have her tell me today.
You can imagine what I THOUGHT she saw, but thankfully it wasn't porn. She decribed to me today that it was little pictures of women that he could click and then read stuff. I explained that he was "dating" (I really didn't know what else to say except the truth). We then worked through a little teary episode, most of which was because this made things more final for her, and like most kids, she is still hoping that this will all fix itself some day.
Can I just be PO'd???? We have one computer, right out there in the living room, not hidden away, and he's on there scouring for a new wife with his daughter in the room?! Of course, this is after he hasn't seen her since Friday after school and is supposed to be spending quality father-daughter time. Couldn't he have e-dated Friday night or all day Saturday or Sunday morning? He had to spend three hours online when he should be with her? Why does he want shared physical custody again?
(Deep breaths...)
Second thing? I found out this morning via email that I am homeless as of July 2nd as my landlady cannot find anywhere else to live during those months and she wants/needs to live here for July and August (she lives the rest of the year in another state). She said I could move out and then move back in September 1st, but realizes that probably isn't ideal. My friend said that I could live with him for those two months, but before I make any commitments, I should probably see what else is out there for July 1.
I really don't have time to apartment-hunt right now, but I know that people are already signing leases for summer. I know that I don't want to live in an apartment complex (lots of reasons, most of which revolve around the fact that I am 39 and haven't lived like that since college), but I don't know if I can afford renting a house like I'm in now given that it's pretty cheap, and I have no idea what our temporary financial situation is going to look like.
Perilous. That's how this all feels to me right now.
I know I should just stop worrying. Things always work out. But even those of us with free-flowing optimism freak out once in a while. :*( (That's a teary frowny face.)
(Deep breaths...)

Actually, I considered an apartment (until I found out that my house payment was going to actually be cheaper than rent... and I got 3 bedrooms, a garage and small, manageable yard to boot, on a cul-de-sac.)
But.... an apartment.... if it's not kiddy city and all abustle with inconsiderate, loud jerks.... could be nice.
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~