Telling the kids soon - can't sleep ....

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Registered: 09-01-2006
Telling the kids soon - can't sleep ....
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Wed, 12-27-2006 - 12:26pm

H and I agreed to split in the New Year (like many other posters on this board). Well the New Year is now days away and I cannot sleep in anticipation of breaking their little hearts. I am trying to focus on just having fun with them right now while they are oblivious to what is going on - but inside I am an absolute reck.

Everyone keeps saying kids are resiliant and I am sure that is true but bottom line we are wrecking the family unit in which they have felt so safe and secure in. The family that has helped them thrive. My stomache is in knots. I know their lives are in the palm of my hands right now. H chose to end things but at this point I agree that we just do not compliment each other for a number of reasons. His behaviour towards me is text book abuse - not physical but everything else and I just fell out of love with him a while ago I think. In the end I feel that there is a shot at a happier life for these two precious girls (4 & 2) but I know in their perfect world Mom and Dad are together forever.

They love their dad so much, but the part that will be really hard on them... and me... is being away from me. I work full time and they are both in daycare but aside from that, we are always together. My heart is aching so much... Is anyone else tormented about what the coming days will bring? I am literally sick to my stomache over this and trembling with nerves....

God I just hate this so much.... if only things could work out....

Rose

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Registered: 09-16-2006
Sat, 12-30-2006 - 11:54pm
Just hang in there and know that even though we all don't know eachother,we can help eachother through all this. It breaks my heart to see my kids hurting.He chose to leave and not work on things b/c it was too hard, and I get to pick up all the pieces..........

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