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| Fri, 04-15-2005 - 1:19pm |
I just wanted to say Thank You to all of you for your support. It is always helpful.
I had a very bad morning with me ex when he came to pick up our son to keep him for the day. I just poured out my heart, I cried, screamed why didnt he want to be with me, what's wrong with me etc. I made such a fool of my self and i'm so ashamed.
He has always said that it woudlnt work for us right now too much anger and pain between us. You see I changed the locks when i found out he cheated the second time around. He says i kicked him out and he had no where to go but he moved right in with the other woman, even though he could have moved in with his father or grandmother. My thing is it was his cheating and lying that made me kick him out. I thought it would be a wake up call for him guess I was wrong. So he's on this "i kicked him out" how could I.
He still uses my address to send western union payments for his car and to his mother Why. If he is so happy. He is on relationship #2 since the separation and havent even had the first one. All this time I've been afraid that by jumping from one relationship to the next he's just avoiding dealing with his true feelings for me.
He got the first woman pregnant with twins and now has the 20yr old. So he now has three kids. I dont even know why i want him still. I have to now endure him wanting to take our son and spend time with him and this 20yr old. It's killing me. It's just been a year and he says he's over "us" he's moved on and is happy with her. How could I have been so wrong believing we wanted the same thing. How could he be over "us" just like that after a year. God this hurts. Then he threw on me this morning that he may move to pennsylvania and will ask her to go with him and says this will probably be better because I wont have to see him! what! what about our son then. It just crazy.
So just thanks for all your loving support. Has anyone dealt with a similar situation like this, how did you get over it?
