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Tomorrow is our anniversary
| Tue, 10-11-2005 - 10:53am |
It would been our 7th anniversary and I don't know how to feel. I havent posted in a while so some may not know the story. To keep it short, we've been separated since Dec. 17 last year, I have my own apartment with our 11yo son, he's still staying at his mom's (where we've lived the year before) with our 5yr old son; during the end of our relationship, I made the worst mistake=dealbreaker. We still see eachother, take the kids to Friendly's as a family, help eachother out financially, basically just living seperately. No papers have been filed. He still says "we" and "us". I enjoy the time I get to spend with him but fear being ungrateful when I ask for more. I know he's not ready to work things out but he's still talking about taking us all to Brookdale (resort in the Poconos; the two of us usually went to the couples-only resort to reconnect)! I don't know what's on his mind. I don't think he knows really. He'll show me emotion and be affectionate, next moment we're back to "friends". I cried before work this morning because I'm confused. I try to go with the flow, enjoy trying to be friends again because I know it could be a start. Am I being naive? Imagining things or reading too much into his nice gestures? havent had a bad day in a while. don't even cry as much but this week I'm down. What do i do?

You take it one step at a time..... don't read anything into it, but "be present" in the moments to see where they go.
Ask for his honesty.... you need to know how he's feeling and I think that it's OK to tell him that.
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~