tough day w/tough weekend ahead...
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tough day w/tough weekend ahead...
| Fri, 08-25-2006 - 10:41am |
im having a rough morning....i feel so alone without anyone to turn to...im afraid that this is what the rest of my life is going to be like and it is a daunting thought....im not sleeping...i have constant headaches....i have been keeping myself busy with work, school, working out, and shopping..(retail therapy?!?)....but i feel incredibly lonely and guilty...and sad....
just needed to vent..thanks for listening..

Hang in there,
Kelly
Big Hugs to YOU! Brenda
Hugs, Brenda
You have described and posted word for word what I'm feeling today. It feels like life is happening outside those doors and you're left watching. Keeping busy is a good way to help through times like this. Talking to a friend or family also helps. Praying is another way that I manage days like this. Know that you're not alone in what you're experiencing and feeling. Weekends are difficult but holidays are the worst. I didn't realize next week is Labor Day weekend which makes it all that bad. Everyone seems to have plans but me and looking forward to the weekend. Whereas I'm dreading it. Believe it or not, I am actually saving some of my counseling sessions (the insurance only allows me to have so many a year) for the holidays because they are killers for me. So I hope you to know that what your feeling isn't unusual because it isn't.
Keep telling yourself what everyone who has been through this has been say "this will pass!)
Thank you so much for your advice and sympathy, it feels good to know that I am not alone. I know my family feels guilty going out on the weekends and leaving me home alone. However I do feel that everyone must go on with their life and eventually I must go on with my life as well. I tell my family that I feel guilty for leaving my abusive STBX, but they don't seem to understand, they just tell me that I shouldn't feel that way because it's ridiculous.....easier said than done.
Thanks for listening! Good Luck!