Ugh....

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Registered: 05-02-2007
Ugh....
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Fri, 05-18-2007 - 10:48am

Well, last night I had the misfortune of running into my STBX...man, I lost it. That rotten S.O.B. can sit there, with no emotion at all, and tell me how "we" lost each other, "we" didn't do this, "we" didn't do that.....OH MY GOD! It's so hard to see him sit there and blame me over and over again....almost trying to condone the fact that he went to another woman. Trying to make himself feel better I guess.

I look terrible today. I cried so much I have black bags under my eyes! YIKES!

I know I'll be okay when he leaves MY home, but 13 days can't come soon enough. I swear the sicko loves to hurt me.

Thanks for listening!
Hugs,
Jennifer

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Registered: 08-15-2006
In reply to: jjw0503
Fri, 05-18-2007 - 2:43pm


I understand how you feel. My x always lets me know how its all my fault why our marriage broke up. How I lead him to another women. Sometimes I like to ring his neck, he needs to take a look at himself. I will not take the blame for what has happen. He tries to make it look like he is the victim here, how he didn't get the love he needed. We were married for 16 yrs and now he treats me like am somekind of stanger. Its hurts, after what he has put me thru this year and half I still have feeling for this S.O.B.

Its like they get this thrill, like they have no heart to make us feel hurt, feel guilty for what they did. I have to keep telling myself when am feeling sad that I didn't deserve this and that my xhusband is not the man for me. Its been a year and half since he left and it is getting easy to know that my life will go on without him.