Ugh...going crazy!
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| Wed, 08-22-2007 - 2:05am |
Hey everyone. This is my first time here so I'll give you a little info about me. I'm 36, I have 3 kids ages 16, 14, 9. My divorce will be final in 8 days, after 18 years. My 16 year old decided to live with his dad, so he can be close to his friends and wont have to switch schools. The other two will be staying with me.
Lately, I really feel like quite the nut case. I have moments where I'm bursting into tears just while driving, over nothing, and other times I have this uncontrollable RAGE..that's the best way to describe it. It's scary sometimes how strong it is. Just today I decided I didn't want to look anymore at the mothers day tree he bought me several years ago, so chainsaw in hand, down it went! I dont know what comes over me. He's mad about that, but yanno, it was MY tree!
To make matters worse, I can't afford to get my own apartment yet, so I'm still living here. He lives upstairs, I live downstairs. I am struggling so hard to save money to move, and He's out buying a new wardrobe, taking a trip to Vegas, and investing in a new webcam so he can "you know what" with his new online girlfriend (who is 21 to make matters worse). Makes me want to scream.
I have been married since I was 16, I have no idea how to do this, or what I'm doing. I am stressed out on money, stressed out on kids, stressed out in general, and trying my very best to keep the chainsaw safe in the garage. Any advice or help is greatly appreciated!
Tammy
Edited 8/22/2007 2:24 am ET by tammyid

Tammy,
Hey... living together when you know you're divorcing is not easy (even when it's practical).
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~