update - Socializing

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-15-2004
update - Socializing
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Fri, 11-11-2005 - 9:19pm
Sorry it took all week to post. I want to thank all of you for encouraging me to go out with my friend last week. Up until the minute I walked out the door I wanted to crawl back into my safety net, my house. But your encouragement helped me face my fears.
We went to a club that she had been before, it was noisy and a ton of people. I certainly felt out of my element and very insecure in myself. For the first while I just observed everyone interacting with one another. She was wonderful, I am very lucky to have met her she comes from a abusive marriage very similar to mine. Finally I made my way to the dancefloor, still feeling very insecure and that all eyes were condeming me. You have to remember that I lived like this for more than twenty years someone always finding fault with me and what I did. Long and short of this story is that by the end of the night I was enjoying myself and having a blast!!! I didn't want the night to end. I certainly did not feel as insecure when we left as when I got there!!! Thank You ladies for your encouragement or I probably would have spent another weekend at home. I can hardly wait to go again.
THANKS!!!!!!!
iVillage Member
Registered: 03-15-2004
Fri, 11-11-2005 - 10:22pm
WHOO HOO! See? You are on your way to a WHOLE NEW WORLD!!!!!!!!!!! Good for YOU!

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