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| Sun, 10-09-2005 - 12:01am |
Well I decided to email my Ex back, I talked with our church counselor and he told me that if I do that not to touch base on any of the negative in his email(his email is on the other post) so I kept it upbeat and positive. Maybe alittle too. Remember we have only been divorced for 1.5 months and 2 weeks prior to signing papers we were making love and i thought working on it. So its hard to separate all of this...It's like :::What just happened here so here is my email to him a week ago:
<<<That is so cool that you were able to see a baby hummingbird. With my eye sight I would have thought it was a bumble bee :)
And of course yes, I still go to Ridgept. I told you that, probably always will unless I moved out of state. I talked with Jim B. this past week and he is looking and feeling great and is so thankful that his surgery is behind him. Amen to that!!! His kidneys were fighting the surgery so it was touch and go for a while...
And Yes, the boys know that I am communicating with you.
Just because we don't have that piece of paper between us, doesn't mean my feelings have changed. I still love you and I still crave you :)~ I was told that when two people have the same intense chemistry, as we did that only comes once in a lifetime.
I found the coolest place for a walk it's Pigeon Creek Pier and you walk along the channel and get to see the boats and if you look down you can see small fish, and that will take you to the end of the pier out at the big lake, I would love to take you there, you would Love it. I believe its in West Olive.
I'm sure you are all geared up for bow hunting, thats in a couple of days. You are such an awesome deer hunter, I know you don't think you are, but I have always told you that. Good Luck and Be very careful.>>>>>>
Even though he has yet to respond (and maybe he won't) I'm doing pretty good and it really doesn't bother me as much as I thought it would... probably because he put me throgh so much crap.. BUT, I can guarantee and I know him.....He has printed my email out and he has read it over and over and over. That is who he is and what he does...Why he asked me if I was still going to our church, i'm not sure because i just told him a few weeks prior when he asked the same thing..we must just be going at different times now. But, he is SUCH A BIG GAME PLAYER that I'm sure I pumped his head with the fact that I told him I still loved and craved him...that he is just waiting to see if I email again. His Birthday is the 11th, and I was thinking about calling and wishing him happy birthday, but my counselor said you can, BUT, if you don't, he'll know your thinking of him...because of the email that you gave him.
So what advice would you give me? What do you think of the email, to nice for him, (i'm sure he is eating it all up) versus his negative email (his are always like that)which he procide to give me open ended questions and then says that I don't have to respond...Well I'm thinking that exactly what he wanted. Thanks for listening...Victoria

Personally, it looks to me like you are both "game-playing". You talk about the Hell he put you thru (althoguh i dont know the story, not sure if its been posted here or not, so i am sorry if it is & i have missed it) & that you had ot leave this marriage within 4 months - yet you are still telling him you love & crave him?
hglucky~
Thats what I was thinking, he just wants me to squirm (thats his thinking, always)But I was wondering if I should just email him and tell him that I'm not going to have contact anymore and that I wish him well..take care sort of thing, because I don't really want to think he can have his way with this email and to think i'm pining over him.
truthfully everyday I don't hear his voice or see him is a day much better, and its been since august that i have seen him...but we have emailed.
Just before we signed the papers he was the one that wanted a date-like committed relationship for forever and then possibly get remarried again when the teens left the nest(I would never remarry him) date him,,,probably, maybe with reservation.
I DON'T WANT HIM TO THINK I'M WAITING AROUND FOR A RESPONSE FROM HIM, SO SHOULD I SEND OFF AN EMAIL AND WISH HIM WELL SINCE WERE NOT GOING TO HAVE A DATE LIKE COMMITTMENT LIKE HE WANTED ITS BEST NOT TO CONTACT EACH OTHER...So I would really like this BACK OFF MY SHOULDERS NOW...WHAT DO YOU THINK??? Thanks for any advice...Victoria