URGH, Why r the 1st few days soo hard...
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| Wed, 06-22-2005 - 3:01pm |
Here I am on day 2 of "nc". Goodness, why is it so darn hard. I decided once again that it's best since he is not willing to give me the kindness and respect I give him that I will have NOTHING to do with him, no calling, no letting him come to the house to see the baby, not to even come inside when picking him up.
I know its the right thing to do but I kinda miss talking to him when things were "nice" between us. I wonder if he misses me. Stuff like that ya know. I hate feeling like this. It always seems as though im the only one with these feelings and he doesnt think about me like this.
I promised myself to be strong and if I started feeling weak, I would do everything else but break down and call him. The longest I've gone w/o calling him is 8 days. He had called me inbetween that time but I didnt answer. I KNOW he will call. After all he will want to see the baby. Im just trying to get geared up for it, and be strong and not put my foot in my mouth. Oh boy...
I didnt respond to his email, I figured I've done all I can do and someone told me once that sometimes Silence is Golden. We'll see.
Thanks for letting me release some steam.

well as the old saying goes, old habits are hard to break.
You will be ok, you don't need him :) Email me instead of calling him, you can even pretend I am him and type away, I won't even read it ;)
Hugs, don't worry it will get better.
Angelena
Stay strong, luvred. I know it's not easy to let go, but you deserve to be happy. Letting go is a big step on the path to finding peace and happiness in your life. Remember that although the right thing to do isn't always on the easiest path, in the long run the rewards are much greater.
-sang