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|Sun, 12-02-2012 - 8:51am|
I have been married to my husband for 4 years. We have been together for almost 10. We have two sons ages 3 and 6 months.
My husband has always been "difficult" and I knew that. He is very moody and I feel like I'm on egg shells at all times.We used to have good times to balance it out but not anymore. He has been emotionally abusive both to me and the kids, not that they understand yet. He's just kind of mean-spirited sometimes. I don't know how to explain without going on and on.
Anyway... I have been unhappy since shortly after the birth of our first son. The bad thing is, I have low self-confidence and I'm a people pleaser, so I've never said anything to my husband. Well, other than letting him know he's hurt my feelings or whatever. We also never fight. I just take whatever he gives and shove it down inside.
Now that we have our 2nd child, Ive kind of just gotten to my breaking point. I told my husband that his negativity and treatment of me and kids had to stop. He stopped it, pretty much, over a month ago. However, he still wont go do things with me and the kids and still goes crazy over nothing soemtimes.
We don't spend any time together at home or out of the home and have nothing in common. Overall, I'd say he's a great guy and a great father, but I don't think we're meant to be. We don't share the same religious views, views on spending time with family, etc.
If I was to be 100% honest, I think I've built up so much hurt/anger/resentment that I don't even want to try. However, I don't know how in the world toIo from him thinking we're fine to me saying I'm done with this and leaving him.
I would like to try just going and staying somewhere else for now... my parents live in the same town so I could take kids and go there and he could stay in our house. I just wouldn't even know what to say to him considering he thinks everything is fine. I've talked to my Mom and she said she feels like she walks on egg shells around him too and that his negativity brings everyone down. THis from a woman who kisses his butt everytime she sees him. I never thought she disliked him at all.
I did see a relationship counselor alone a few times and he thinks I'm "done" and didn't have the nicest things to say about my husband.
I do love my husband, just not in love. I don't want to hurt him. I'm just sad that our communication level is so non-existent that it went this far.