Where to go from here....

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-11-2005
Where to go from here....
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Thu, 10-13-2005 - 10:47am
Well he's engaged, and more people know about it....I didn't tell them. Our town is small and people know people. I hate they tell me. I don't wawnt to know!!
Anyhow...I feel so spent and so lonely. I thought I wanted him back, I thought if I changed everything else will change...that's cause I gave up trying to change him (he gambles)...so where do I go from here?
Everyone says take care of yourself...but what does that mean? I eat, I sleep, but I really don't live life right now...I'm not happy and I go to work like a robot and to the gym just to do something....when will this heartbreak stop? I can't believe I cry over him still even though I initiated the seperation....but thinking it would refresh us, not end us. So how do I end us, for me?
iVillage Member
Registered: 10-30-2004
Thu, 10-13-2005 - 11:49am
Maybe you're not so much mourning him, but the loss of the life that you wanted for yourself. Think about the reasons you separated from him. Were you living the life that you had envisioned for yourself? Think about what YOU want out of this life, you only get one chance. From what you say he was the wrong guy. Find something special for you that you can look foward to doing. Sounds like you are on the right track by going to the gym and not sitting at home, that's a good start.