Why is he thinking of me?
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|Tue, 08-02-2011 - 3:14pm|
Hello everyone....just need some vent time.....
My bday was July 30 and I was out attending a wedding. I normally wouldn't go but decided what the heck.....I can't live sheltered anymore and I have to try to get back to "normal." I wasn't thinking of my ex.....which surprised me but I was busy mingling and talking. My phone went off and I saw I had a text msg....it was my ex wishing me a happy bday!!!!!!! I nearly fell out. I did NOT expect that AT ALL. In fact, I would've bet my last dollar that wouldn't have happened. It was his idea to get a divorce. Was I pleased? Yes...but what lousy timing. I was at a flipping wedding! I don't like how I felt. I don't want to feel any emotion when it comes to him, but I did. I also thought of him the rest of the night....sigh. I didn't let it ruin my time but it put a damper on it. It brought back the pain and what could've been.
I'm asking.....WHY did he do that? We've been apart for almost 2 yrs, divorced one yr. It was incredibly painful for me.....still is somewhat but I'm making an effort to start a new life. I hate what has happened....and I've struggled in every way but what else is there to do? Life goes on.
Thanks for listening!