why is it so hard?
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| Fri, 06-15-2007 - 10:13pm |
i am practically married i have been with steve 3 years and have two children, here is my story.
he has become very verbally abuseive, after my second child she is a year old now, i have had trouble losing the weight, he makes comments and puts pressure for me to look better...this makes me want to eat more
he makes comments how i do not initiate sex enough, and that i do not have the same sex drive as him, he tells me to change it...this makes me want sex less.
he is extremely possessive and insecure, this came from precious relationship issues and i dont know how to fix it, he does not like me to do any more than bring the kids to a relastives house and hang out there for the day, a girls nite out or anything like that is absolitely out of the question
he telle me i have it made because we live with is parents so that we can save money to by a house and still i find no time for sex and exercise, this makes me want to take a nap even more..
i am jsut stuck, i love him, but do i love him or how he use to be ?? i love the man i met, not the man i am with now, and i think he feels the same about me
so now we try and break it off smoothly because there are children involved, i have to stay where i am living wise untili can find and apartment on my own. because we live with the in-laws we are still sharing a room, it has been a week of just being civl to each other and no intimacy or anything,w e still sleep in the same bed because neither one of us can fall alseep without the other.. but i am getting weak, and i miss him i miss his kiss touch everything, but i do not miss teh fighting and all of that. i am trying to be strong because i cant go back not unless he is willing to get help for the verbal abuse and his jealousy, but OMG it is so hard to not just try and give him a hug or kiss his shoulder when we are cuddling in bed tot rya n initiate something.
i need support

Hi there.... so he thinks that YOU have it made?
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~
thank you for your book suggestions as well i will look into them
mandy