Wild, long time no see, remember me?
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| Mon, 05-23-2005 - 4:33am |
It's been forever (Wow, almost 4 years now) so I won't hold it against you if you don't remember. I'd love to say I'm just visiting, but I'm really not. For those of you who don't know, and if Wild doesn't remember, I was going through a divorce about 4 years ago. Had gone through all the motions and only had to sign the final papers. To make a long story short, we got back together after 9-11. Things went great for a while and we even had another baby (I'm Mom to 3 now). Unfortunately, he's no longer in love with me and while there hasn't been any cheating, or anything really nasty, there is also no longer any love. I guess we're lucky in the fact that we still like each other. But I must admit that I'm feeling very depressed about the whole thing. Divorce hasn't been mentioned yet, but I don't see any way out of it. He refuses to do any sort of counseling. Anyway, I remember how much you all helped me out last time I was here and while at a quick glance I don't see Kat, or Deb, or many of the others that used to be here, I suppose that's a good thing. I'm happy to see you and Ken are still doing well Wild.
Pepper

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Hey Jen!
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~
I wonder what in the world is going on in his head????????
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~
((((((((PEPPER!!)))))))
I'm SO sorry you found yourself back here. I was so hoping for you to live the "happily ever after" fairy tale.
You know what you have to do--document document document. I know how hard this is to do when you still love someone....you dont want to hurt them or make them mad at you-but you HAVE to do this Jen. You ARE WORTH so much more. You are worth being loved. You are worth everything Jen. I know the feeling though-I rarely got a card or gifts from my ex (yep, still pondscum). If it weren't for my mom, I'd never get a gift. But you have the 3 best gifts of all Jen.
As for his business..that is 1/2 yours and never forget that. Speak to an atty before you agree to any type of settlement.
How are you doing? Are you eating and sleeping? You know how important that is. How about the kids? getting big I bet! Joshua now pretty much looks at me eye to eye. They are 11 1/2 and 9 1/2 (man how time flies). As of October, it will be 5 years that PS left. And he still causes me trouble. blah! Same sh**, Different day/year! In the last year, I lost my stepfather and my 14 year old dog....and got 2 shih tsu puppies...Lord help me! (pictures below in my sig line).
Anyhow, email me/IM me....I'm here for you. I've missed you and again, I'm sorry you found yourself back here-but I'm sure Karen will take such good care of you!
HUGE hugs
Deb
OMG Deb, are they really 11 1/2 and 9 1/2???? I can't believe how big they've gotten. If you tell me how to post a picture I can show you my little ones. they are getting big too. First, let me tell you how sorry I am about your step-dad. Wasn't your father sick too when we last talked? You have my condolences and a big hug sweetie.
As for my little imminent divorce I'm already working on getting my ducks in a row. He's got a great atterney for the business and though divorce isn't his speciality, he probably knows someone who kicks butt. I guess knowing it's coming has it's advantages. Maybe that's one good thing from having gone through it once before. I can see ALL the signs. Lets see, he sleeps on the couch every night (he claims he falls asleep in front of the TV and next thing he knows it's morning) yeah right. Then he wanted ME to fall asleep upstairs and come down later and get him. Ummmmm. I'm asleep and comfortable, you're 35 years old, I think you can find your own freeking way to the bedroom. You know about what I've already written. It's currently 8:50 and I haven't heard hide nor hair from him since he left this morning at 7am. Yep, the man loves me, what can I say? Nor do I plan to call him. I've got feelers out right now because I don't have a clue who a good divorce atterney is here. I want to wait until the plant is a done deal and I have in my possesion the name of a really good divorce atterney, then I'm going to tell him that things are going to have to change in a big way or I'm walking. I'd have that talk now, but I want to back action to words. If he says he's not willing to work on things (which is what I am totally expecting since he's shown how little he cares already) than I really am going to walk. By far the hardest part is the kids. They all adore their dad even if they only see him once a week. The part that kills me is knowing that they are now old enough that they will understand the difference if Daddy's just not home much and if we aren't living in the same house anymore. I'm really really not looking forward to having to field some really tough questions from them. Especially my 7yo. He's very perceptive. Oh Debs, why do men have to act like......well, like pondscum? I'm sorry we lost touch, but I'm glad to hear from you again even if it is for a crappy reason. I'm tougher this time around, but it's still hard. I'd say I wish I hadn't ever given him another chance, but that would be erasing Austin, and I simply can't wish that. Lol, as for the eating thing, I'm a stress eater remember? lol. I'm one of those stupid people who eat their sorrows away. I've gained 6 pounds since it all started, and I'm trying to control that. I'm still in my size 6 (or 8 or 4 depending on the pant - don't you love how they size women's clothing) but they are getting VERY snug. The sleeping thing isn't so great. I guess that's to be expected. I go from wanting to sleep all day, to not being able to sleep a wink all day or night. But honestly, it really hasn't been as aweful as it was last time. I was devistated last time. This time, I'm more just hurt....and angry. I don't think I was angry last time. I keep thinking "You blew it this time buckoo!" Fool me once, shame on you.........fool me twice shame on me. I figure I took him back once - a second chance - so this is the shame on him part. Not to be nosey (Ok, I am being nosey) but is PS still with the same GF?
It is good to "see" you again. I take it you don't post here often anymore huh? Take care and talk to you soon.
Jen
Wow!.... You're posting in pictures and blue ink!
Good to see ya.... tomorrow is the last day of school (1/2 day) for the year... and I am sooooo glad!
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~
Yep, they are 11 1/2 and 9 1/2....time sure does fly huh? They're getting big and they are still pretty good kids. Josh has the typical 11 yo mouth. As for posting a picture, I'm not sure if you can without the "express yourself package". If you want, email it to me and i'll post it for you (I'd LOVE to see the kids).
Yes, my dad was ill at one point. He had colon cancer. He's in remission now though! He's doing well. My stepdad (who lived here in Chicago), he had lung disease from asbestos. he suffered the last few months of his life-but he lived about 8 years longer than the doctors gave him. It was a rough summer for my kids last year.
As for PS...he's not with the same girl. They broke up after 1 1/2 years (Feb 2002) and he has since lived with 2 or 3 other girls. In between girls, he tries to butter me up and tries to come back. I no longer find him attractive whatsoever and I do no have any feelings for him anymore (Thank God!). Right now, he is out of our lives. I told him to stay away and he has (without a fight). Long story there.....
Jen, protect yourself now. You know what you need to do. You have to do it. Don't force him to work on things unless he *really* wants to. I'm so sorry. Never regret though...as you said, you would not have your beautiful baby. I do not regret anything with PS...except I wish I would've gone through with the divorce the first time around.....but everything happens for a reason!
Are you still in that one house dubbed the sponge paint house? If so, why should you move???
Hang in there. Email me a picture if you want (I can post it for you)....email addy debralew99@hotmail.com (it's the same)....
HUGE hugs
Thats terrible about the rudeness. And some people wonder why alot of children are rude???
Yep, baseball, baseball and more baseball. I'm at the dang fields almost every night whether that be for a game for one of the two kids or practices. And Jacob is in gymnastics. He's awesome. I LOVE watching him in whatever he's doing, but he's such a natural with gymnastics, it's scary. baseball too. He was asked to be on the traveling all stars (Which is an honor), but he declined. He's still slightly afraid of the ball. I'm not going to force him. He's having a GREAT year. Like I said, he's a natural!
Did you not hear? I'm once again cl over on BSSG. that's why I get the pretty colors and pictures ;)
How have you been? Hows Mr. Man? Tell him I said hi!
I have to have shoulder surgery at the end of June. I hurt it lifting my computer bag for work (the pain started though with carrying the heavy thing all the time). I have shoulder impingement and a probably partial rotator cuff tear. OUCH! I just
Your Cl of "Bull S--- Scorned Girls? WOW! That's very cool! And if anyone can teach these scored girls of the world to be good BSers it's YOU! ;-) hee hee....Ok, I give what's BSSG? I know what you mean about the sports stuff. Alax wants to play soccer, Bryce football and they both want to take Karate AND horseback riding lessons! They got the horse love from me. That's one I'll probably be getting all 3 of us in. Other than that I make them be choosy. Only one activity while school is in session. For Alax that means soccer, for Bryce football. Gee can't wait until Austin starts something. Hey Debs, you move to Indiana and then I'll be more than happy to watch your boogers for you! hee hee! Btw, I got a new puppy girls. She's 7 months old and 90 pounds! It's nice to feel protected. She's a Mastiff like in the movie "Stand by Me" I hope you've seen it because there is a part where they boys are going through the junkyard and one of the boys thinks he heard the junkyard guy say "Killer......sick balls!" I think I'm going to teach Maggie that! hee hee! Then I'm going to rent her out to members of the board! I'll be rich in a month!
Deb, I figured out another way to make money. I worked as a Tech in a hospital for a few years, so you just come to me, I'll do your shoulder surgery and you can pay me. I'll only charge 1/2 what the hospital will I promise! TRUST ME! ;-)
Pepper the Physician!
Nope!
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~
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