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| Sun, 03-09-2008 - 11:28am |
I was 13 when I met him. We had sex when I was 14. We had our 1st son when I was 15. At 16 we went to Reno to get married. at 17 I cheated on him. At 18 I had our 2nd son. At 19 I didn't want to be married anymore, but we worked through it. At 30 I had my "midlife crisis" he could have everything, I wanted to start a new life. He's always been able to pull my back in. In October of last year, things were getting weird. I finally started checking the phone bill and found out he had a girlfriend 2 days after Christmas. He took a few days to decide that it was me he wanted. 3 weeks later something made me ask him if he had any hesitation about me purchasing Hawaii airfare for our 20 yr anniversary in May. He said yes - I want to make sure we are both 100% so I told him to leave that I

I met him when I was 16yrs old, moved in together when I was 6 months shy of my 18th birthday.
I have been through a lot over the years with my stbx too.
Dear blondgal27,
You may not be able to see it right now. However, you are being put in a position to grow your spirit and come out the other end not only surviving but THRIVING!! You are still young and have your whole life ahead of you. Yes, you may not know how to be alone but you will learn. Eventually, you may even learn to love yourself. When that happens, the world is in your hands. You dictate how you want to live your life. You say what kind of a partner you're going to have. You decide what you want to do to make you happy. You decide what kind of a person you will be. You will nurture yourself and be the person you've always known you're capable of being. I know because I've done it!
David Ellzey is giving a free teleconference tomorrow night on "How Long Are You Willing To Wait For Happiness?" at 8:00pm EST. Go to www.FromDivorceToLoveForce.com for more details. I wish you love and peace.
LoveForce
Sorry for your pain. You can't change anyone else, only yourself.
A individual therapist can help you better understand your past relationship history (marrying that young and having children are often the result of filling voids in your life which explains your anxiety over being single) and help you not repeat negative patterns in the future.
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