The horror of domestic violence will end and life will start
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|Tue, 09-10-2013 - 6:02pm|
Hello, at one time I was just like many of you, very pissed at my husband for everything he put me thru. I didn't think life could be so cold to me and I wondered each day how I would face this abuse both mental and physical. From the time we were married in 1987 to 2010 I faced his bull. At first, I thought it was me that caused him to latch out and talk about me as if I had a tail.. Then the physical abuse started. Each time it got worse from slapping me, punching me, chocking, shotting me with a bb gun, to hitting my knees with a hammer or my head. So many things he did to me. I wasn't thinking then about how I would feel later. Hell, I didn't think I would live later. Many times, I wanted to kill myself then to suffer another day or night with him. Or he would kill me.
Yes, I left him many, many times. Once I found this website and began pouring out my life on this board. I was given plenty of advice but I still loved him and I would go back. Again and again I did so. Many times, I just needed to get away for a while. No, he didn't always say he was sorry or that it wouldn't happen again. He told me, it was my fault and if I hadn't lied to him, he would treat me better. I believe his bs.
Finally, I left in 2010 around Xmas and I stayed until Februray. He would call me at work and tell he how he needed me. But I was determined this time not to go back. I knew he had cancer but he beat me and I didn't care. One day, he said he couldn't beat me anymore because he didn't want to die alone and no one would help him but me. So, I went back, he was very sick. I stayed until he died in April 2011.
Life has never been better. I'm so happy that its unreal. I am always smiling, dancing and singing. Ladies there is hope out there. I prayed everyday for God to rid me of my burden. He answered my prayers and everything since has been easy.
Each day, I pray for all of you. Ladies there is a life afterwards. I found one.
God bless you.