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|Wed, 09-11-2013 - 11:50am|
HI.. I originally posted yrs ago on the pornography board due to my husband uncontrollable desire. Now I don't remotely think twice of it. It's gotten worse than that. I am 35 married 15 yrs , he is 37 and we have 3 kids. They see his horrible behavior. Yes there can be ok days but its bc we are making sure we don't say or do anything to trigger it. However he is known to scream and punch walls etc. my daughter who is 15 says he calls her incompetent , pimple face, fat and ugly which I just found out. I am beside myself. Today he came out of bathroom into kitchen arms folded and said accusatory, all right which deodorant did u pack him for camp?! I said simply I bought him a new one (11 yr old son school camp) and he says walking away was gonna say bc they were all there in drawer. I said, I think I know what to pack and what he need. don't walk out and act like I don't know what I'm doing. All of a sudden doors slam open a wall is punched and he's in my face screaming so loud that I don't know anything! I am a lazy p.o.s. that can't do anything, I am lazy, irresponsible, And goes on to scream that I b!ch like this constantly and that I am the one with the problem. I said then to stop, and he pushed me. I stumbled by I didn't expect it an then I said wow really, I'm about done with this, with everything u accuse me of I am ready to file. That made him turn around and push me twice til I was aagainst a wall and he punched the wall and left a gaping 3in dent And paint removal slight hole in wall. Then screaming that I don't manage to fill out his direct deposit papers (he wants $1000 to go to a savings of his I can't access but we need The money . And then goes off about me getting brakes fixed on his vehicle yet won't put the money in account so I have to wait anyway! Then proceeds to say that I should've had the attic, basement, garage cleaned out all ready for yard sale, I don't clean house enough.. boys rooms are a mess, that I need to mow, and the list continues. I do work 40plus hours a week on midnights and I do clean as much as I can. Then as he leaves for work texts me that I need help. I am to sleep on couch til I apologize for everything and for !!tching all the time etc.
i feel absolutely crazy... Totally mindscrewed.
and in Ohio unless there's actually physical abuse nothing happens. yet filing divorce means we live together til it's over a yr later and that's a yr of suffering for me and kîds.
am I overreacting. I know this isn't normal but is this abuse.? Did I start this..? Do I not do enough to warrant this?. I actually caught myself resuming packing his lunch like nothing happenethen realized how mind screwed and controlled I felt he was.
sorry about how it's written . iPad isn't easy to type on.