My husband treats me like an emotional punching bag
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|Tue, 08-19-2014 - 10:49pm|
My husband and I have been together for 14 years and married for 10 years. We have 3 small children. The oldest is 7. I have had type 2 diabetes for 7 years now. I control it with my diet and a pill twice a day. My husband got diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes 3 years ago and has recently been changed to type 1 diabetes. He works a full time job. I am a stay at home mom. I have tried to get a job several times but he always comes up with an excuse as to why I cant take that job or why I dont need a job but yet he ALWAYS throws the fact that I dont have a job and that he makes all the money in my face. I am not the best house keeper but our house is clean and we do have 3 children. I cook every meal for him. I pack his lunch for work. I lay out his clothes for him to wear every day. I take his lunch, water, and everything he needs for work and put it in his car for him every day before he leaves. I take care of the kids. I take the oldest to school and pick him up every day. I take them to their sports practice and games. I do a lot. The one time I asked him to stay with the kids because I had to be at a meeting for church and couldnt bring the kids, he didnt last 5 minutes. He was calling and yelling at me to get home because the kids were driving him crazy. I feel like he doesnt give me the credit I deserve for everything I do. No appreciation. I know he makes all the money but he has a cush job that he goes to for 8 hours a day and he mainly sits there and chats with everyone or watches tv all day. Then he comes home and the yelling begins. He yells at me because dinner isnt ready on time because I had a child sick throwing up in the bathroom. He yells at me because he is telling me some story some guy told him at work and I break eye contact with him to peak at our kids. He yells at me for anything and everything I say. I ask him a simple question about anything and he yells at me like im an idiot or like I should be able to read his mind. If he loses his keys or anything he yells at me because some how or some way or another its my fault he couldnt remember where he put it. The list goes on and on and on and on. The yelling goes on and on and on and on. I am so emotionally and physically drained. I have thought about leaving him numerous times but I cant. For one...the kids. For two...when we met, I gave up college to be with him. Since he will not allow me to go back to school or get a job I have no experience in anything and I cant get a job that I would be able to support my kids and I with. I am scared to be on my own now since it has been so long. He has family who can help him. I have no family and no friends (other than my church family). I only want him to see how he treats me and stop treating me this way. I have to wonder if its not his medication or something thats making him act this way. Any suggestions? Please be kind.