Verbal Abusive..why do I want him back though?
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|Tue, 06-04-2013 - 6:31am|
My boyfriend and I broke up in February after only 8 months. Our whole relationship was toxic. He started out jealous and it turned into verbal abuse to almost physical with him pushing me to the ground one night. He has started fights with me at bars when he sees someone looking at me and thinks I am flirting back. He has called me c_nt and wh_re many times and has always justified his anger due to my behavior and action. It is always the blame game and I am always at fault. I have apologized and took ownership for a few things that I have done that was never cheating but would hurt the other person's feelings. He has gone through my phone, facebook and took my computer password to read my emails for a week. I was not allowed to speak to another man unless it was work related. Since we broke up I have tried to get back with him. He has said it is on his pace and I cannot get everything that I want all the time. He needed my behavior to stop being foul and disgusting first. I said I wanted to be exclusive and to maybe try counseling. That is the only way he will know about my "behavior". He just says that I need help and he is fine. So I have realized that these three months I have been pathetic with trying to get him back and reaching out to him. I feel used because when we would get together we would have sex...which then left me feeling sad after.
I know he still cares and still loves my son but it is now the cat and mouse game. I feel he is being manipulative. Everytime we start to talk or text hee turns everything around on me and my so called behavior. Everyone..and I mean everyone including my family does not understand why I want to fix things with him...and I am not sure why I still have strong feelings for him. He has me almost convinced that I am at blame but I do not think I am. Has anyone been through this situation. Is he just trying to hurt me because in his mind I hurt him?