I feel so lost.
Why did you marry him?
I agree with the other posters and would like to add why not go to a lawyer and get a free consultation and see what you would get in a divorce settlement.. and see where you stand for that.. Its not to file for divorce but see what your rights are.. You could be entitled to half assets, spousal support and child support... I would also go out and find atleast a part time job if you can..
Divorce is not easy but staying in an unhappy marriage is not easy either.. God would not want you to stay where you are not happy.How long would you want to stay unhappy anyway? Another day, month , year, 20 years?? Ask yourself those questions??
If you have tried to make this work for so many years and its not then its time to try something else.that will work . You are going to have to make some hard choices..
Are you in counseling alone?? I would highly recommend that also as you navigate these marital issues.Even if you separate
One thing my DD learned from seeing my go through 2 divorces is that women need to be able to support themselves, not always depend on a man. What would happen if your DH died?
Then I try to think why would I want to stay and my answer is my kids (9 and 10) and financial support.