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| Thu, 01-15-2004 - 8:29pm |
normally I would've acknowleged his feelings and then perhaps I would not be there for a while, take some time myself, but today, all the feelings from the past exploded and i just gave it to him. i told him i don't think he's a baby and i just enjoy his accompany, and that we've only been back together for a week and it's the same old thing again, me having doubts about his feelings for me, being always so sensitive. i also told him he can't just drop me and pick me back up whenever he wants, and that he's taking me for granted. (of course here it is nicely stated but i gave it to him with some four-lettered words)
now, a couple hours later, i am feeling somewhat guilty. i am supposed to be understanding for his feelings and needs, and not explode in his face. but i couldn't pretend everything was ok at that moment. i can't always apologize. i need him to be understanding for me too.
so i plan to probably apologize tomorrow in person, better than online. there's something else bothering me though; i saw on his cell phone caller ID that his ex has been calling him and he called back (i only saw once). a friend of mine told me not to make a big deal of it unless it happens again and i agree. but should i confront him that i saw or is it really no big deal? i don't want him to get mad thinking im too jealous or controling, because he'll probably respect me more if i trust him and not bring it up.

As for the ex i'd wait and see. I some times once in a blue talk to my ex but that's because i'm still freinds with his family and he's freinds are my freinds as well.
If it happens to be a routine then i'd push away for a while.