Asking God for reassurance!

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Registered: 12-10-2013
Asking God for reassurance!
Mon, 07-28-2014 - 8:19pm those that are on the religious side will most likely be the only ones to "get" it and maybe (hopefully) help me in some way...

I have been a member on this message board for the past few years.  In that time, I had been ambivalent about my marriage and not sure of what to do.  To cut to the chase, I had/have decided that divorce is my answer.  So, I left in March.  It's now July and the last and final thing to do is to make my last move and contact a lawyer.  Needless to say, I'm dragging my feet.  I guess it's fear mostly holding me back.

So I'm looking to my faith for reassurance.  I just ask God and all the angels in heaven to HELP give me more reassurance to know I'm moving in the right direction.  I'm asking them to show me signs.  Well, I'm getting quite the opposite!  Every day, I see or hear something that does nothing but REMIND me of my husband.  It's not like the typical little things either.  It'll be a song I haven’t heard in years, seeing something completely RARE or even seeing not one but two of our old neighbors in the same store on the same day when I've been to that store a thousand times before and that hasn’t' happened.  I don't know what to make of all this!  I know I'm more in tune to this stuff because of what's going on but it's so often and a lot- I just don't know that it's a coincidence. 

So, for those of faith- what would you make of this?  I feel like God is trying to slow me down or something..or change my mind! Undecided