Confused

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Registered: 04-22-2004
Confused
Tue, 06-01-2004 - 3:07pm
Please bear with me this could be a bit long.

First of all I dont know if this is where I should be posting but you guys be the judge. My ex and I have been apart for 2 years in July. We were seperated for one year and have been divorced for almost 1. We split up because well thats kinda hairy. I caught him having lunch with some girl I didnt know and he had mistakenly left his wedding band off that day. (yea right) I will admit I dont know if I was in it 100% either. We were young when we met and rushed into alot. He was even 2 years younger than I.

Anyway, we have a little girl that both of us adore. We have recently been spending an odd amount of time together. I mean we have always tried to get along but that does not always work. But lately I have had these weird feelings and think about him so much. I think about what we had, how we were together and I am still attracted to him. This past weekend on Friday I had to swing by his house to drop some things off for our daughter she was already in bed and we winded up hanging out for awhile and then I had to run out to drop something off to a friend. He asked if I was coming back. I thought about it and I was going to and then after I left I talked myself out of it. Well I went out with friends and drank a little too much and started whining about how I want him back and so on. Saturday afternoon I end up at his apartment again. He cooked dinner we hung out and after our little one went to bed there we are again alone. Before I know it we are kissing and making out! I spent the night there. We all three slept in the same bed.

So Sunday he winds up at my house and we eat dinner and hang out with our little one. Once again we put her to bed and he and I are hangning out again watching a movie on the couch holding hands. He slept at my house.

Needless to say I am very happy but very confused. I hate wondering what he is thinking but am so scared of rejection that I cant talk to him. I am afraid of scaring him off. I dont want to be pushy cause I dont want to get married again right now but I would like to see if there is somehting there between us........

PLEASE HELP




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