Confused,upset,sad,down. He's gone Help
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| Sat, 05-29-2004 - 5:53pm |
This guy was the best sex i ever had. He just loved to eat me out, and wanted nothing in return, unless i wanted too, but he didnt beg. He knows how to lay the pipe well! He was just an awesome guy all around. It was just difficult for me to trust him, because of his looks, thinking he could do better. That just drove me crazy.
We would get into little arguments during out time together. He would just completely ignore me after a fight. No calls, no contact nothing. I had to crawl back to him each time, and that made me more insecure.Our fights were due to my lack of communication. I have a guy friend who is my best friend in the whole wide world. If im with him, and my x calls, i dont answer the phone, because my best friend would get upset about it. My x thought i was ignoring him, which would always lead to a fight, and him drilling me about the lack of communication.My x always wanted to meet my best friend, but i dont think that would be a good idea, since my best friend doesnt like him.
About 4 months ago, my x seen me and another guy friend of mine in my car point blank. He was driving, i was in the passenger seat. I felt so bad, and knew my x seen me, and knew i would get drilled with questions. After the x seen me, i got the phone call 1hr later. I didnt answer my cell, but he left a message saying "once a cheater, always a cheater" And he hung up. I havent heard from him since. I didnt answer the phone nor return his call, because i didnt want to hear it. Now i feel bad about it
I stopped going to the gym for a month after the incident, and still no contact. I recently started going again, and i see him all the time working out. The first day back, i tried to get close to him, and tried to make eye contact, but he just completely ignored me. NOTHING. I felt so bad. After this, i went into a complete ignore mode with him too,and have done it since, hoping he would come back to me. Im flirting with other guys in the gym in his presence, but still nothing. Im hiding the fact, im upset and have tried to keep myself busy, but i cant stop thinking about him. He treated me so well. I want him back, but i dont know what to do. I dont want to go to his place, in fear, he may have another girl there. I know he wont answer his phone if i call, so im confused and clueless. I want to speak to him, but i know he will just act like he doesnt care, and its my fault. I want some type of closure with him, but he acts like he doesnt care. This was all bad timing, and i wish it would of worked out
HELP

Never mind the sex. That is not a good predictor of something to last.
You cannot control what he does - only what you do. And you must choose to move on because his behavior is detrimental to your well being.
Forget about this guy and the gym - take a chill pill and do not go near him - you only feed the fire and make it hard on yourself to get over him. It is easier to find a new gym. In the mean time, take time to reflect on what you would do differently the next time. You attract a mirror of yourself.