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feeling guilty
| Sun, 09-05-2004 - 11:18am |
Okay, I have a lot of issues. First off I'm a 21 year old female who is overweight. I've never had an actual relationship and I'm still a virgin. I feel so uncomfortable around most men. My cousin is also my best friend and she is living with a man who she has a child with. They have been together a little over two years. My problem is that over that two years I've fallen for her man. My cousin is also heavy, we're about the same size, and he prefers big women so he's told me a few times that he thinks I'm attractive which I am so not used to hearing. He flirts with me, and we joke around sometimes about stuff. My cousin doesn't care because she knows that there is nothing really there, or at least she thinks that. I've started to really care about him and I don't know what to do. Should I try to have less contact with them? I could never tell her how I feel she is a very jeolous person except for some reason she doesn't worry about me. I don't know how to act around him anymore and the last few times I've been around him he's caught me staring at him sort of and always smiles at me which makes me blush so bad. My cousin seems so clueless about my attraction to him. Please I need advice. Do you think maybe I like him just because he is the first guy in a long time to pay attention to me. I'm going crazy here.
Jenna
Jenna

hey jenna! I'm sure you don't want to hurt your cousin (or yourself, for that matter) but you MUST STOP this - you WILL hurt if you DON'T STOP THIS NOW.
I understand that it makes you feel good that he is paying attention to you - but you KNOW, in your heart of hearts that this is wrong. HE is not doing anything wrong, he is just being nice, but YOU must stop.
there is nothing wrong with being 21 and a virgin. you will have a real relationship when you are ready to have one. in the meantime - start dong things that are good for YOU, start having relationships with people - not specifically boyfriend/girlfriend, but just do things with FRIENDS.