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| Sun, 07-29-2007 - 11:30pm |
My husband and I have been married for two and a half years now and we have a beautiful 2 year old son together. For the record, we did not get married because we got pregnant, he sort of popped up during the planning. Last year we bought a house and we have worked complete opposite schedules since. He works all day and then meets me at my job to get the baby so that I can work all night. We see eachother one day a week, which is his only day off. I sort of consider it mine also because it's the only day I have a backup parent. Lately I have felt very "empty" about our relationship. Part of me wonders what made me fall in love with him in the first place. We are such different people. I am very free-spirited and he always has his feet cemented to the floor. This is good in some ways, but not so good in others. The other night at work, after having an argument with my husband, I began to talk to a regular who usually comes in at least once a week. He and his softball team always ask to sit in my section, and he has always been a very nice guy, very attractive too. He seemed genuinely concerned with my having a bad day. After talking with him, not about my husband and our fight, but about everything else, he made me feel so much better. I felt as if there was a real connection there and I felt that he did too. He knows I am married, but I can't help but feel that if I wasn't he would pursue something. Part of me is disappointed by the fact that he is respectful enough to not put me in that position. This is horrible of me. I have never cheated and I am not the cheating person, but I feel like I need something more. It just felt so good to sit down with someone, a male, and talk about my day, getting a little interest and feedback coming in from the other side. Part of me wants to tell my husband to wake up and realize what he has. I don't know what more I can do for him. I just feel horrible about the entire situation and like I am just plain stuck! Like I said, I'm a free-spirit and I hate to feel this way. Does anyone have any sort of advice? Anything?

You didn't mention it in your post, but aside from the scheudling problems, do you have any other issues with your husband? You say that he should wake up and appreciate what he has. What do you mean?
It's hard to bond with your mate when you don't really have the time to do it properly. If this is your only issue, you need to take the time to reconnect. It sounds like your bonding more with your customer than with your husband and that might be why you feel like you're looking elsewhere... make sense?