Given that he cheated on you before and that you found out from someone else, it is very normal that you would be worried and not completely trust him. He should also be somewhat understanding of this.
My suggestion would be for you to get some individual counseling and to ask him to couples counseling to work on ways to regain your trust.
Of course you should move on. It's ALWAYS worth it to move on and find someone else who is great for you, and TO you, from the start than to stick around waiting for someone with a history of hurting you to change.
I think that the reason you were not able to feel as much for other people because you've always had him on your mind. Nine months is not really a long time to be single and for him to have changed.
You've described a relationship that doesn't work but has been forced now for so long that you don't know what else to do with yourself. I don't see any future between you two, not because you can't trust him, but because you SHOULDN'T trust him. Find someone who doesn't break your trust and you will really kick yourself for staying this long. You're forcing a failing relationship - Just because you have feelings for someone does not mean that you should be with them. This guy was wrong for you. Time to move on and enjoy being single. Seriously, don't even try to date anyone for a while.
You know, most people don't stay with their first loves forever, especially when they were childhood sweethearts. It's common to break up and move on at some point, and when they don't it's usually because they grow up together, at the same pace,
Welcome to the board browneyedchick8,
Given that he cheated on you before and that you found out from someone else, it is very normal that you would be worried and not completely trust him. He should also be somewhat understanding of this.
My suggestion would be for you to get some individual counseling and to ask him to couples counseling to work on ways to regain your trust.
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Of course you should move on. It's ALWAYS worth it to move on and find someone else who is great for you, and TO you, from the start than to stick around waiting for someone with a history of hurting you to change.
I think that the reason you were not able to feel as much for other people because you've always had him on your mind. Nine months is not really a long time to be single and for him to have changed.
You've described a relationship that doesn't work but has been forced now for so long that you don't know what else to do with yourself. I don't see any future between you two, not because you can't trust him, but because you SHOULDN'T trust him. Find someone who doesn't break your trust and you will really kick yourself for staying this long. You're forcing a failing relationship - Just because you have feelings for someone does not mean that you should be with them. This guy was wrong for you. Time to move on and enjoy being single. Seriously, don't even try to date anyone for a while.
Welcome to the board browneyedchick8,
Most couples cannot overcome betrayal and rebuild trust without counseling.
You know, most people don't stay with their first loves forever, especially when they were childhood sweethearts. It's common to break up and move on at some point, and when they don't it's usually because they grow up together, at the same pace,