How do I get past this or should I?
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How do I get past this or should I?
| Tue, 05-22-2007 - 5:40pm |
Im not sure if I have the right to be angry about this or if Im just being selfish and emotional. This is my dilemna, Im pregnant with my 3rd child, I am a stay at home mom and have been for the past 2 years. My husband was happy when we found out that I was pregnant, yet 2 weeks later he completely changed. He woke up one morning and decided that he didnt like his job anymore and that he wasnt going to go to work. He said that he would take stress leave and still get paid for it, but they denied his claim and still he didnt go back to work, we lived off of our tax return money for the next month and 1/2 while he leisurely looked for another job. I asked him to go back several times, all the while trying to be supportive of him. Meanwhile our insurance is cut off and I cannot get prenatal care. He is 30 years old, and started hanging out with his 21 year old cousin, going out to bars and drinking alot, when I would get mad about this he would stay out all night and say that he wasnt going to come home to argue with me. I would threaten to leave and tell him that I cant do it anymore and he would say he was going to stop and tell me that he wasnt going to drink anymore, however the next week it was the same story. He finally got another job, but this job is 1000$ less a month than what he was making, now he tells me that I have to go out and get a job, mind you I am 5 months pregnant. I am trying to find a job and not having any luck. We cant pay our full rent and are having to borrow money from people left and right. He is happy with the job he has, but now I am miserable because I am the one having to figure out which bill we can pay this month and how we will come up with the money for next month, I am going to have to work a job that I wont like and have to find someone to watch my kids while I work. I am so hurt and mad at him for putting us in this situation and he is so stubborn and he wont take responsiblity for his actions, because he is convinced that he did the right thing and that eventually this career change will pay off. Im sure it will in the future but in the meantime I am holding all of this on my shoulders and Im pregnant...I feel he sacrificed my happiness for his. I dont know how to get past this. am i just being selfish myself? I think if he would just acknowledge the fact that I am under a lot of stress and show me some compassion I would be ok.

I know I'm rambling on about me, but just know that you're not alone. If I could think of something else I'd like to hear, I'd say that to you too. I was just reading about hanging in there in marriage and I hope I can. It's hard to imagine trying to raise you're children in an unhappy household. I'd never do to anyone what my husband puts me through. I can only hope it will pass when he realizes he has a family here, and he needs to step up... maybe.....I honestly don't know....I do wish the best for you, and hope you find some answers and resolution.
Hi myboysmommy,
I don't think you are being unreasonable.