Hurt and Confused
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|Fri, 06-06-2003 - 11:55am|
Yesterday he told me he posted to another board letting everyone know how happy he is, how excited he is about the trip, and how happy his family is for him. I went and looked at the post, and it is very sweet. However, I click on more, and saw he had posted several other times within the last few weeks as well. Curiosity getting the best of me, I looked at his posts. I found one that broke my heart. He spent the night with another woman. Classified it as the best 8 hours of his life. Timing being what it is, he came online and messaged me. I told him I was reading the post about the other woman. He confessed.
He appologized over and over for betraying my trust. He said he told her he could never be with her again and that he told her about me (she works with him). He begged me to forgive him, said he loves me and wants to marry me and will never forgive himself for doing this. He was at his mother's during the conversation, and she came into the room and asked why he was so upset, and he told her what he had done. I could hear her tell him he was an idiot, but that if it was meant to be, we'd work it out.
I don't know what to do. I can easily picture us together. I love him. My kids like him. But my heart aches. The tickets are non-refundable, and I'm not sure I would cancel them if I could. I don't want to do anything rash. He knew that I have serious trust issues anyway since my ex used to betray me and lie over and over. I know he's not my ex, and that even though we say we love each other, we haven't even met face-to-face yet. But I'm so confused about whether I should trust him again.
What do you think?